Friday, June 19, 2009
Talk is Cheap
These days, i listened to awesome old songs with inspiring lyrics in it. Well, not exactly old. But perhaps, songs that you've listened to ages ago, but i only came across yesterday? Outdated indeed but worth listening to. To those who have not heard of it, I must share.
Bizzarre Love Triangle - Frente
Every time i think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem
I findLiving a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way,
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seemI do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
A Treasury Of Unusual Wordsi wish i could just dringle, but i can't afford to. dringle verb to linger; to trickle; to expend time lazily and slowly and you know what's gigantomachy? gigantomachy noun a war of giants, especially the great battle in Greek mythology.
..sue confesses..
Monday, June 15, 2009
*photos of CCA award ceremony and remaining Campfire (Eagles) photos are up on my facebook account. Thank You.
A Rush of Blood To The Head
Sometimes words can't really do the job of changing one's perspective or belief. Sometimes acts and achievements do the job better. This year's CCA award ceremony was incredibly moving. It has powerfully impacted me. I wanted to be like many of the people up on the stage. It moved me and it made me believe that nothing's impossible. And so, I made a promise to myself - to make a difference and take a place on that stage next year.
Talking about my school's motto, I went back to school - Hougang Secondary, last night for NPCC CAMPFIRE! Met Eagles and boy, were we high! Although, not many of Eagles turned up but we managed to bring the house down! I think we frightened most of the campers and even the teachers. It was awesome having to meet after soooo long and had such a memorable, entertaining and engaging experience and participation during the CAMPFIRE. Not forgetting, the everlasting laughter and madness from Andrew, SiongPo, Rebecca and Fangning. It was INSANE. Personally, i loved the friendship dance. It has never been so coordinated and significant. hahaa, we actually made NEW friends - the juniors! Impressively, we thought of a new cheer for Eagles.
EA EA EA EA GLESSSS X4
Short but powerful (:
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The best part of it all is walking around school as a squad and falling out as a squad too. How i wish we could still go for trainings, march and fall out as a squad again and again. I used to mind. But now, I'm craving for those memories. Yesterday, it was so memorable. We actually "Bersurai" after 2 years of not doing so as Eagles! Haha, ALTHOUGH ANDREW DIDN'T GET IT RIGHT AND STARTED MARCHING OFF FIRST! It still brought tears to my eyes. I didn't regret going for the campfire last night, in search for the memories to ease the pain inside me. We've been Eagles for 6 years and counting simply because once an Eagle, always an Eagle!
I used to cry a lot during my secondary school years. In fact, I cried all the time. Even when there are no tears, my eyes have the haunted hollowness of someone who is sobbing inside. But thankfully it ended and i stopped grieving with every piece of my soul before the years end and somehow, it paid off (:
I feel like I'm a totally different person now - stronger but still as busy and disorganised. I have contract law report to be completed and revision for accounts! TIME is never on our side, i must say. Next Monday, school re-opens and I'm not even moving on yet. It's TIME to move on.
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. sue confesses..
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Picnic and BBq this summer! (please note that the remaining 200+ photos are in the process of being uploaded in my facebook account, thank you!)
Monday, June 8, 2009
NewlyWeds& LittleCurls;
I had an awesome time helping out at my Uncle's wedding ceremony the whole of yesterday. splendid food, fantastic people and cute kids. hahaa, have always wanted to see how he'll look like in his wedding costume with his tummy bulging like that. he looks awesome!! so happy that he's happy now. may the marriage lasts and blessed by Allah. may this marriage will finally give him true happiness that he always wanted. the best of it all, i get to meet adam haqid and afina adwa (my niece and nephew). it has been ages, and i finally got hold of my niece. she's only 3 months old. adorable and gorgeous. i mean, seriously. it's shown by her smile, eyes and fair, smooth skin. especially, those little curls. it's not as nice as her father's but better and it looks more beautiful and tamed for a baby. she'll grow up to be a stunning lady, i know.
My dear sunshine, Afina Adwa
My lil' romeo, Adam Haqid
my cous, the bride& groom, myself.
$ favourite dowry $
at the bride's place when prayers were read.
brothers and adam
gorgeous nooraini with sleeping afina
♥mama♥
In my eldest brother's car from bride's house going back to the wedding ceremony. i didn't know my brother and sis would be so tired from all the eating.
Friday, June 5, 2009
What my heart is beating for ;
Wheeeeeeeee! finally, the wait is over! mid-semester has ended for me! freedom is back, at least for a little while. not forgetting, like all other holidays, a list of prepared self-treats during this two-weeks break; ♥ many many more than these..
♥ going for AC sub-comm camp this weekend!
♥ sleepover at Junru's place with the girls!
♥ shop and fall back into FASHION!!♥ watch all episodes of Pushing Daisies season 1 & 2♥ cath a movie with my girlfriends♥ have fun organising Rockamania XV♥ catch up with that special someone.. In fact, for that last point, i had the chance to do so yesterday right after my final paper. We went to watch Dance, Subaru. Awesomeeee. And had dinner at Secret Recipe where i ordered Irish Lamb Stew and my love had Grilled Chicken. It was simply a splendid and an unforgettable evening..
Ballet Shoes is nice, so is EMMA WATSON - love her accent and stunning beauty. It is a British Television Film produced based on Noel Streatfeild's 1936 novel Ballet Shoes. It was released on 26 December 2007. Nevertheless, it's worth watching. Watch the lives of three orphans -Pauline, Petrova and Posy Fossil, who live in near poverty with Sylvia Brown. They grew up together as sisters and they not only, vow to chase their dreams but also to get their names together with their surnames, Fossils recorded and remembered for life by everyone. Ballet, Theatre, Planes, Classic and Awesome acting! Everything that you could never imagine teenage girls achieving at a very young age. Laudable ambitions but not impossible. I've learnt that there's a round to everything, if you stop and think and a mother could possibly notice everything about you simply because they grew you up (:
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Here Comes Memory; Nothing Ever Was.
The minute i view the list of songs i have in my laptop, and played it, i realised that the playlist was not updated with new songs for ages. I was listening to almost all of the songs and ended up sinking in the melody while it brought me from one unforgettable memories to another in secondary school and also some past events.
I've got some straightening out to do.
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To whom it may concern,
it's happening again. today's full of reminiscence. It's when i'm too focused that my mind just have to wander off. Worst, it wanders to the past. I've been busy mugging. But all i keep thinking about, besides the books and papers, is you.
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it's happening again. it was when he was ignorant that you entered and made a mess in my life. you know better. now, you've made a mess in my head. head aching after aching. continued with spinning indefinitely. til it stops at the very moment when i first met you; last year. something that is not worth remembering. It's funny when we thought that it was a start of something new but it ended so soon. Reason being, you weren't sure who i really am. Bullshit. I don't need a person like you in my life. A friend who left when one is in need is simply cracked shit especially when he knows she's not very happy with her life at that very moment. I swear i didn't know what you were thinking but then it hit me. I could see things clearly. I chose to end it. Simply because I knew I was used.
it's when he's busy again and all packed with his own activities that i couldn't help but think, if there's love, there should be trust. if there's no trust, then there'll be no love. i love him but trust is a whole different ball game in this matter. Comparison should never be done between you and him in the first place. But i thought you were what i was looking for and then you left. I was thankful then it went nowhere yet, and i still have him. He's better in all ways. In fact, he's the best. He's tolerant, forgiving and understanding. And that's not all, he gave me everything that he could give. He always want the best for me.
You see, you didn't know i had him. Because, i refused to disclose it to you. I thought it wasn't important. But what i did, was a stupid act. I should have known. I should have stop.
He is everything to me. He is important.
So please leave. Get out from my head now you, past.
Monday, June 1, 2009
AND AHH. some unforgettable memories captured on
the first few days of our Year 2, ahahaaa(:
